Belated Valentine's Day

A less busy weekend, hence giving me a chance to keep my blog alive.

Happy belated Valentine's Day everyone. To all the couples out there, I hope you enjoy this special day with your loved one. Shin Shin, I heard from my cheating hubby that you were having great time with Sean. Keep going and stay sweet. I have not talked to you for ages. ><

So, how was my Valentine's Day?

Woke up ill. Was having flu and blocked nose (still am) but I decided to go for the 9am lecture. As I greeted my only friend in the class (there were only 5 of us in the class that day lol), she told me that I looked terribly pale. Yeah, maybe. I could sense that my body was too weak and I could have fainted somewhere on the way to uni. After class, I decided to go home. Just can't afford to stay until the next lecture. Saw R on my way home and I tried my best to put on a smile. The last time I saw him was the week before I flew back home during the summer. Oh, and there was once few weeks ago I was walking just behind him and I didn't realise that it was him until I whatsapp-ed him to confirm that. Ha, that guy has turned more charming. His smile and his soft-spoken personality were what made me had a crush on him. Had a short chat by the road and he had to go to the lab.

Home and I jumped straight in my bed. Too weak to do anything and again, Mr. Jones crept into my mind AGAIN. I have not done any proper introduction to this character yet. Maybe I should come out with a post on him, depending on my mood. Yes, he is an angmoh and that's his last name. No, you can't find him on my Facebook or whichever social media I had so please don't stalk! I have been trying to not remember him but I just can't. Slap me please my cheating hubby, like what I told you. It suck to think about you on Valentine's Day you know, Mr!

Had a nap and when I woke up, someone dropped me a bomb! I shall not disclose much on that matter as it is related to a few bloggers. The gay circle is just TOO small! I just hope that the person will deal it well.

On a plus side, I have been chatting to two nice guys on the apps. One has stated clearly what he is after and another one just casual chat. Time to add more "foreign resources" (as what my cheating hubby labelled it) to my collection. :)

I made this 3-D heart. :)

Phrase for the day: "Being single is better than being in love with a wrong person" - my Mauritian friend.

♥

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Mixed Feelings

It's like a roller-coaster ride week.

Started off with me finishing my finals and then a night off in London. Two days after that, I met Michael and we kissed under the moonlight by the lake. Three meets after that including an invitation to watch his band performance. A day trip to Wales yesterday and I thought it would be a great trip before I go back and face the haze. No, I was wrong. Not because the city is boring (in fact it is, to certain extent) but a distant phone call from my family 4am in the morning (Malaysian time). I was angry throughout the whole phone call. Almost broke down but luckily friends were with me. Never thought that it'd happen again, for the second time. I wish I am there with them right now. I feel so useless.

Just came back from meeting with R. First time seeing him after ages. Wasn't in good mood due to family matters but he managed to cheer me up a little with his charming smile and lame jokes. Great lunch. Shall put my feelings aside for now while I try to calm myself down. Hope that things will be better. Fingers crossed.

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He...

There was no one in the house and he popped up at the door. Since we were both hungry due to the cold weather, we decided to cook something decent. It was so similar to our second meeting in my house. After dinner, we were seated at the dining table facing each other. He smiled to me and it was so charming that it's impossible for my heart not to melt for this guy before me. I smiled back to him and looked deep into his eyes. He is so perfect! Then suddenly ... ... my alarm rang and in a split second everything disappeared from my view. :-( F***!

I always believe that when you dream of someone that means your souls are together at that point of time and the someone is also experiencing what you do. But I doubted this belief that I have been holding on to since young. I saw myself as Matt and him as me. Confused and disheartened. Bumped into him last Thursday in front of the entrance to his department. I could no longer recognize him after not seeing him for more than a month. Slimmer and tanner than before. He greeted me and as usual his smile that has melted my heart. OMG! Talked to him for a minute or so as I was rushing to class.


Wanted to talk to you so badly. The tub of ice cream that you left behind is still in the freezer and you promised to make me a dinner. I am still waiting for the day to come.


I don't know if I should continue with this feeling. *sigh*

On a happier note, I had my first tutorial this morning and the tutor is so freaking hot. Huge difference from the photo I saw. Trendy, athletic build but not so well defined muscle, sexy back. Aww. He has got my attention on him for the whole hour instead of on the tutorial. =D

Love. x
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