Loneliness and Emptiness

Feeling lonely. Feeling empty.

Just realised that I have not many friends that I am close to. Not many that I can relate my problems to. But I'm glad that there is this someone who is always *cough* there for me. You might not be reading this but I just want to say "babe, I love you. Muakzz muakzz!"

Emptiness. *sigh* The moment after he unloaded and pulled out his d***, you are just another stranger to him. I don't know what I am crapping here.

Feeling shit,
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Hmm, the title. ........ Because I don't know what to put.

It's 9pm and I have just had my dinner. I don't usually eat this late.

3 scones and 2 Nature Valley cereal bars as dinner. I am so lazy to cook after spending the past few hours in the library revising for test (for the module which I did superbly well). I have been giving myself too much pressure after knowing my result for the first test. It's my nature of not being satiated easily. *sigh*

Before leaving library, I went to this one toilet which people seldom visit. When I came out, there was this one guy at the urinal and he was standing quite a distance away from it. I was not sure whether he was peeing or what. All I knew was that he was looking at me the whole time when I was drying my hand. I could easily see his willy had I turned my head left (if he was peeing la)! I have never encountered this kind of situation before! Was he giving me signal? Someone please tell me! And if he did, how should I give a response? Oh, there were only two of us in the toilet.

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I am back here again! Pheww! Thought I abandoned my blog for ages but only to realise that it's just been a week. lol. It has not been a great week for me. Things went terribly wrong and I realised that last year about this time I broke down and even thought of discontinuing my studies due to the immense pressure from studies. *sigh* Is that a curse on me? :(

I am feeling it again now. Probably I am expecting too much from myself after doing extremely well for my tests back in the autumn term. 3 tests and I got two 95's and a hundred. *flipping hair* Clap hand la. I checked the results board and my results were in the top 5% for each test. Greater achievements lead to higher expectations. Oh well, human beings are never satiated.

And then I have loads of assignments due in coming weeks and the first one is on 11 pm this Sunday. Hey man, it is Chinese New Year you know!!! About half complete now but judging from the time that I am left with right now minus New Year Eve's dinner and Sunday's day out for celebration, my assignment might end up being incomplete. Each time I enter my room I can feel all the assignments cascading down onto me. Ugh!

Just moments ago, I received a whatsapp message from someone saying that our date this evening might be cancelled. He had toothache yesterday and is still on antibiotics. The pain got worse.

*notification ringtone from phone*

Ok, bad news. Date has been cancelled. Sien. Not to forget this morning I wasted £1.50 on bus ticket and after a while I got on the bus, I was stuck in the bus for quite some time as it banged into a car. =.= Bad luck, please stay away from me!!!

Fml!

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