Lonely..

Everyone in the house is now in a relationship except me. :(

That time when we were doing clean-up after moving into the house, all of them asked me to throw away a vase with loads of artificial flowers in it. I insisted on keeping them and cleaned each and every stalk of flowers all by myself. And now what's happening?! Urghh!

Please refer here for the name.

I just referred to the post and oh wow, I am so surprised how things have changed in these two months! :O

First one to get into a relationship is Ron. He is still with the innocent-looking-but-not-so-innocent-after-all girl.  The girl is quite obsessed with SEX and DICKS. She understands every single dirty jokes that the guys talk about. Rare! lol. 4 months anniversary is coming for them. Congrats! Still very sweet. They are always constantly teasing each other, calling each other 'fat' and 'round'. Glad that everything is stabilising for them after quite a shaky start. Ron even spent £150+ to get himself a bus pass so that he can go to her house often. He now saves every penny spent on food, expenditure and etc. Big sacrifice for a guy who is facing financial problems. Hope everything will work out well for them till the end. :')

Next up is Vivian. She is now officially together with the German guy. We, the three guys often criticise this relationship. Not close to her as her behaviour irks me. First, the girl is a clean freak and one day she came to me and complained about her German putting his sneakers in the bag. Ok, is that really a big deal? It is such a common thing here that angmohs just stuff anything into their bags. Then, the guys noticed that the couple has been having potato waffles and scrambled eggs 90% of the time he is having dinner in the house. Sometimes, they don't even have anything to cook and there was once that Ricky offered his fried rice to them. Tesco is just like a stone's away. Speechless.

Last one Ricky. He is now back together with the girl who dumped her after 2 days of being together. The girl is a coursemate of mine. A friend of mine who did not know what's going on asked her a day after she dumped Ricky whether she has got someone that she likes. She nodded and mentioned a name which sadly wasn't Ricky. Oh dear! I have nothing to say but to wish him best of luck. Hope that you won't be her replacement tyres. 

And me, still single and available. I have always been a good listener of Ron and Ricky. I used to share my problems with Ron but now that he is 'residing' in the girl's house, I have no one to turn to now. *sigh* :(

Emo,

V 

I Miss You

I called you just now.
Didn't know where I should start from,
So I asked if you were already asleep,
Though I knew the answer.

I know,
I am not good with expressing myself.
It has always been like this with you,
Please forgive me.

It has been,
150 days,
Since we dined together,
And I last saw you smile.

"How have you been?".
You paused,
It has been a while,
Since I asked you this.

You said you are well,
And everything is going smoothly.
Sometimes I know you lie,
So as not to keep me worried.

You asked the same question,
Each time I called you.
"Have you eaten yet?".
"Please take care of your weak body".

Like me,
You are bad in expressions,
I bet that is why,
We are together.

You told me loads of stuffs,
While I just listened.
Your voice is so comfortable,
To be heard.

As you were talking,
I heard a sobbing tone over the phone.
I wish I were there,
To wipe away your tears.

It is so contagious,
My eyes became teary,
My cheeks soon turned wet,
It just happened like that.

In another 127 days,
I wish it is shorter.
I will be back soon,
Back to be with you.

I want to tell you,
How much I love you.
I miss you,
My beloved daddy. x <3


Your little kid,
V

It Isn't Great After All Part 2

continued..

He looked different - like 5+ years older than his photo. That moment I decided that this guy isn't for me as a partner, yes if a friend. He took me to a Chinese restaurant to have some dim sum for lunch. That was when I told myself, "V! Wth are you doing?" I guess I am just stupid.


*We talked about food and I introduced him to Penang*
Tyler : My dad is born in Penang.
V : Oh really? I thought your dad is a German.
Tyler : *paused for a while* Ermm, his father which is my granddad worked in military service and you know *made some weird sign language* my dad is born.

*Talked about his job*
V : Do you have fixed working hours?
Tyler : Oh, no. I am self-employed ... (bla bla bla which I no longer wished to listen)


First, his story about his family didn't seem to be plausible to me. Could tell it was created during those few seconds of pause to make this kid believe in him. Second, you told me you teach in a school. Enough!! We parted way after lunch. Got home and received a text from him.

Tyler : It was lovely to meet you. But I expect that I'm too old... lol. It's ok, please just tell me if that is the case.
Me : A bit old for me tbh. You look younger on Jack'd. No offence.
Tyler : Bye. I'm offended as the pic on Jack'd is recent and I told you I was older. Offence taken.

That's how it ended. I jumped straight into bed and laughed at my stupidity. Jamie and Robbie were whatsapp-ing me and asking me to forget about it. *bear hug* And thanks to Jamie's suggestion, I finished the chocolate in my room. Gained a bit of weight but felt better. Good compensation, no? lol

And the food I prepared. It ended up in my stomach. =P

It just doesn't deserve to be given to you.

I am stupid, ain't I?

Love,
Stupid

It Isn't Great After All Part 1

I dread to recall everything happened last Sunday. A first proper date which eventually turned out bad. I wish I can not write this post but after promising Shin prior to the date that I would come up with one and Jung asked about that, I am forced against my wills (>.<) to type out the leftovers which have not been erased from my memory. Hopefully it is lengthy enough. lol

Shall just name him Tyler. He claimed himself to be a mix of German and British blood. Look back, I use 'claimed'! I knew him on Jack'd last year which I can no longer remember when (good sign!). He has got a fit body (one of those types which I fancy) and a normal-looking face. Started off with very nice conversation and sometimes we talked about random stuffs. Quite enjoyed talking with him then and one day, weeks before Christmas he asked me if I wanted to meet him up for coffee or movie. I was like "why not right" as life was really dull.

So the date has been delayed a few times until last Sunday. Once was that he was in pain due to toothache and a few times he said he was busy. Eh come on la, you initiated it and always put it off! Was damn pissed to be honest. Then he went to Israel to visit his parents during Christmas. At first, I asked him about his plan for Christmas. He said he would be going to London to see his family. Then the second time he said he would be in Germany with his parents and the third time Israel. Three versions of stories! I was so damn stupid that I gave him the benefit of doubt. Very much regretted now.We started talking again after he came back from fulfilling his filial duty as son (from don't-know-where!). I began to feel comfortable again with him.

Woke up early on Sunday morning to cook him something. Kononnya for a surprise. Stupid me. Robert and Jamie (two gay friends of mine) were like, "Awww V! You are so sweet". At the mean time, they were kind of fear for my safety after I related everything to them. They said if I sense anything wrong I can send a text to them. They would then offered me an emergency call so that I can escape. lol. Thank you Robbie and Jamie! x Got on train and headed there with the lunchbox in my sling bag. Mixed feelings. Reached there on time but he wasn't there. Texted him but no reply. Called him and it was directed to his voicemail. Be punctual please if you want to meet someone. Furthermore, you are an angmoh wei! So I waited for half an hour in the cold breezy weather for him to arrive from gym.

To be continued. I needed lunch.

V

Belated Valentine's Day Date

*lub dub lub dub lub dub*

I am due to have my first ever date in 20-odd years!

*heart pumping faster*
*taking a deep breath*

Hope that everything will turn out well. *fingers crossed* It is sunny at the moment. I guess that is a great start. =D Right, I need to groom myself now. Ciao. x

V

It was taken during my visit there.

Happy Single Awareness Day!

That is for myself and those of you who spent today alone. Bear hugs to all of you. <3 Hope that you will find that Mr. Right soon. x

For those of you with a 'husband' or 'wife' or in a relationship, I wish you HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! Please fully utilise today to express your love to your beloved. lol

You hold my breath. Please take my heart.

Kissing which then leads to XXX. Hehe.

At least we don't dump babies in the bin or whatsoever places around mid-Nov! lol

Sincerely from V.

See you. x

V

Happy Chinese New Year!

Hello blog readers!

V, here in UK would like to wish everyone Happy Chinese New Year! Gong Xi Fa Cai! 

New year, new shirt, new pants. Not to forget NEW underwear also ya! LOL. I am in yellow, just saying. :-p

For those who are not celebrating, V hopes that you enjoy the few-day-long holidays and for those who neither celebrate nor have holidays, V would like to tell you that your life sucks. Joking x. Hope everybody have a great day anyway!

It is V's second New Year without the company of family and relatives. It dawned on me that it has been quite some time since I got to celebrate Chinese New Year with the whole family. Last year I was not home and four consecutive years before that my other sibling was away. I must go home for New Year next year!

The fact that I am staying in a proper house here in UK makes me even more homesick. :(

Here are some photos that I took yesterday night at a New Year Eve dinner.

My 'family' here in UK. The one on the first row right hand side is a white.

Decorations that are up on the ceiling. It has been ages ago since I made this.

Chinese knot!

Mandarin.

Ang pow with no money inside of course.

One element that cannot be missed during New Year.

Alcohol. Not mine though.

Love x

V

Ranting 1

I am back here again! Pheww! Thought I abandoned my blog for ages but only to realise that it's just been a week. lol. It has not been a great week for me. Things went terribly wrong and I realised that last year about this time I broke down and even thought of discontinuing my studies due to the immense pressure from studies. *sigh* Is that a curse on me? :(

I am feeling it again now. Probably I am expecting too much from myself after doing extremely well for my tests back in the autumn term. 3 tests and I got two 95's and a hundred. *flipping hair* Clap hand la. I checked the results board and my results were in the top 5% for each test. Greater achievements lead to higher expectations. Oh well, human beings are never satiated.

And then I have loads of assignments due in coming weeks and the first one is on 11 pm this Sunday. Hey man, it is Chinese New Year you know!!! About half complete now but judging from the time that I am left with right now minus New Year Eve's dinner and Sunday's day out for celebration, my assignment might end up being incomplete. Each time I enter my room I can feel all the assignments cascading down onto me. Ugh!

Just moments ago, I received a whatsapp message from someone saying that our date this evening might be cancelled. He had toothache yesterday and is still on antibiotics. The pain got worse.

*notification ringtone from phone*

Ok, bad news. Date has been cancelled. Sien. Not to forget this morning I wasted £1.50 on bus ticket and after a while I got on the bus, I was stuck in the bus for quite some time as it banged into a car. =.= Bad luck, please stay away from me!!!

Fml!

V

Money VS Love

Was watching a movie and suddenly this question popped up in my mind and made me ponder. Money or love?

Time : Some day in future
Characters : You who must make a choice, Money and Love
Story line: One fine day in the future, you happen to meet a pair of twins, Money and Love. Money has got a job with highly-paid salary and you are guaranteed a luxurious life with him in future by assuming that he will never go into bankruptcy. On the other hand, Love's income is not fixed and is just enough to cover his own expenses sometimes, with little savings each month. This means you will have to support him financially sometimes in future. Given that they have equally good outer appearance and personalities but you like Love a little tiny bit more than Money, who will you choose?

Dilemma right if you were to be in that situation? To be honest, I am indifferent between both of them. Hmm, *thinking hard* I will go with Love I guess.


Went into a shop just now and I got help from a very very good looking Samaritan. Was attracted to his facial hair. =D He asked about my studies in uni and helped me throughout till I left. So sweet! *muack*

P.s: Got myself a Twitter account. Thanks to tuls for being so 'semangat' commenting. Gracias!

Updated: Why can't the title show symbols? :-(

Till next time. x

V